I don't know why, but I keep getting idiots at work... ugh. Like really, they're SUPER rude and I'm keeping my cool and then they accuse ME of being rude W.T.D??? (yes! that's what the duck! 'cuz I'm trying to reduce my swearing =P) 


I'm getting soooooo stressed. Didn't help that I was reading up on the stupid rioting manifs going on in the city. Ugh. I realized I was getting edgy so I stopped reading up on it for now. 


I can't tell you how tempted I am to eat choco right now just to calm my nerves!! Buuut I just started my weight loss goal thing and I don't wanna give in to temptation. Like sure I cooould eat some, but I wanted to have puffycorn (popcorn) later (au naturel) which would fit nicely into my cal/carb count but if I eat this choco bunneh... I'll have to give up the puffycorn T~T I don't wanna do that. 


So it's been sitting next to me for the past hour haha I refuse to be defeated!! 


myfitnesspal asks you (when you register) how often you'll be exercising. I chose 3 times a week for 30mins, although before I wasn't really doing any. It was more like, meh once in a blue moon. So I decided my exercise days would be Monday, Wednesday and Friday. Sitting here contemplating this choco bunneh, I was even starting to think "if I eat all of this, how much will I have to exercise to burn it off.." haha yea.. I don't think I'll eat it. 
Maybe I'll make rations out of it though. Going to need to buy more zippylock baggies. For now, je me contente à boire mon thé miam miam =3


I was feeling pain in my lower back today, still am a bit now. I think I need to re-think the exercise time per week. In the sense that, I think I'm going to need to up it. Obviously I don't want to just say that I will, because I've done that in the past and then..nothing. But it will have to be upped. 


I fell a few years back, it was a really bad fall and hurt my back really badly. Had to do physio and I was supposed to continue with my exercises for like.. life. Kinda didn't go as planned. I was told that I'll always have pain and the more weight I gain, the worse I'll feel it. I was doing okish because I had been keeping off some weight but recently it's just been jumping forward. Dx I have a throbbing pain right now. ;_; But ya, so basically, I need to start back. I'm thinking ya sure, 30mins 3x a week is better than nothing. But at the same time, I need to pick back up my physio exercises and I think maybe walking at least an hour a day. The thing is to start, so that's why I'm mulling it over for now. Yet, the more I think about it, overall, it's for my health right? so I should do this! *giving self pep talks* Not sure how long I'll increase it to just yet, I'll figure it out later today once I see how long my physio exercises take. 


This is good, I'm feeling good about this =)


Oh I also wanted to add.. you know like yesterday (Thursday) I went over on my cal/carbs/proteins I should be eating in a day but today (Friday) with the pre-planning what I could eat, I was under by 266 for cals, only 5 though for carbs, 27 for fat and 1 for protein. And by under, I mean that I had that much remaining that I could've potentially still eaten *nods* I'm all proud of meself